Rough day yesterday. It wasn't any one thing, just one of those days where you don't have enough time to do all the things you need to do and whatever can mess up DOES mess up! I was so ready for it to be over...which is sad because it was one of my sister's birthdays and one of my best friend's birthdays. Even though I knew I wasn't going to see my sister for her birthday I still felt like it should be a good day and I should be in a good mood for it. Is that weird?
The good time kept coming this morning when I woke up in tears. Now THAT is weird! And here's the thing, I don't even know what the tears were for because there are so many possibilities!! If there's one little part of me that's analytical it's this. When something is wrong I immediately shift into identify-it-so-I can-fix-it mode. It's all mixed together this morning like a jumbled up mess. First of all I don't like emotion (from myself) so I'm not too happy about having tears come out of my own eyes! But to have so many things that are emotional going on right now I guess I don't have a choice.
Now, I guess I won't be winning Mom-of-the Year award today because this, my first post in monhts, should at least be happy and excited because Brent is graduating today! Ugh! Let me not delve too deeply into all the mental images that pass through my head with that thought! Let's just say I need my little baby Rhett to be sitting right next to me tonight! I'm so proud of my boy, of course! In so many ways he's been a model child. I truly could not have asked for a better son! While I'd like to say more on this, I'll just leave it at this because otherwise my heart might break and I can't have that happen so early in the morning.
Next up on the docket is that my neighbors are moving out today. In all the years we've been in the military we have never found people like this that we have spent so much time with and just loved having live right beside us. I know I speak for Chief too when I say that we are going to miss them so much! They will still be on the island for another week or so but knowing they aren't right next door is sad to me. Becky and Randy are some of our best friends and it's sad to see them go. We are lucky that we still have two more families/friends here so I don't want to take anything away from them. It's a change in the dynamic though and I'm sure they feel that too. At the same time, I'm very happy and excited for the Holleys. They'll have a great summer lined up and are moving into their new house that they just bought in a few weeks. It's just hard to see them go.
And that brings me to Seth. We're inching closer to his surgery. Today we take him for his first shot. He has to go once a week for the next three weeks for an iron shot. As much as we know this surgery is necessary, it's still a nasty reality. It's for the best and that's really all I can say. I look at these things like a tunnel that you have to walk through. Visualization is very helpful y'all! ;) And this is just something that we have to do. I am not dwelling too much on the leading-up-to or the actual surgery and am focusing on the period past it. Not sure if I'm doing that on purprose for my own sanity or if I'm looking at this as a bigger picture kind of thing. If I skip ahead several months I feel that this will be over and he'll be so much better off for it. It seems unhelpful to dwell in the muck of it. So again, with the tunnel, just have to walk through it and focus on the other side.
I think that's enough. I am oh-so-relieved to be taking a half day at work today.So I'm hoping this is enough with the tears and I can just make today a great day! We've got lots of leis to pick out and buy for Brent today and dinner after graduation and a crab/shrimp boil tomorrow for Brent's graduation/Wayne's birthday/Holley's going away and I really want to snorkel on Sunday... So there you go...it'll be great...because I said so! ;)
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